I suppose I'll write about today's events.

So, I'm just sitting here waiting until I feel colder and more tired so I can comfortably and successfully go to bed. So, I finally got to see Matt today and well, after church his car ran out of battery behind Safeway. So for a few reasons I stayed out of site while he went and found someone for help. Eventually we made it back home. But man, were we BEAT! I am so glad I don't have to go back to the Walmart cult-I mean, team. Sure I'd get paid but man... I am so not used to stress. And there has been quite a lot of it lately. Not just from not only what is my new job, but for the most part my first. Luckily the work is simple. But I am a little worried of having to do it alone. Sure Joni (my cart pushing co-worker) can turn a whole row, but I might be a little slower. Causing the parking lot to be blocked for a lot longer! So, I'm hoping a won't have to be out there by myself any time soon. At least not until I'm more confident. It probably won't take long since I was using the machine and the day before I had been terrified of the machine. So yay. Oh that reminds me of something else that happened the day of the cell phone-break-manager-whatever incident. I sat on the machine and got in trouble for it even though I saw Kevin (My professional cart pushing co-worker) sitting on it too. Oh well.

You know what? As a young new employee, a lot of the people there kept telling me what a great opportunity this is and what an awesome career this could start!! Well, no offense to anyone in a high position at Walmart, but to me nothing says failure more than managing a freak grocery store.  And not just grocery, any business not someone didn't build from the ground up themselves. I'll you're doing is helping make someone else's dream come true. I mean if their dream is your dream, or you love your job then sure that's fine. But I have a feeling most of those people didn't go out job hunting or into college making it a goal to strive to be a manager at Walmart. It seems like if you have a job like that, it's not your own dreams and desires taking you there. For whatever reason you didn't pursue them,  even if you were to desperate for money or have to many kids to support, managing something like Walmart and not trying to do anything else career-wise is a mark of broken dreams and abandoned goals. Unless your dream is to provide for a family, which for a lot of men it is, so they don't really care how they do it good for you fathers and husbands. But if in the future I caught myself managing a Walmart and not trying to do anything else career-wise I would look in the mirror one day and cry. All my dreams and goals abandoned for something easy. Something that I didn't have to strive nearly as much for, something that was more in front of me in life then what I originally wanted to do. It would mean that I had taken life's easy road instead of grabbing it by the horns and doing something actually worth while with my time.