Few things so I can fucking sleep

Please will someone talk to me real quick so I can get to bed?

I feel hopeless and like I could cry. I’m in a fight with a really important person in my life and I don’t know how it can be resolved if she continues to act like losing my friendship would be as big a deal as flushing a gold fish. This isn’t just some lame dispute over a guy or something, this concerns sex and suicide. She thinks she’s so much greater and smarter than me just because she has been in the sex department. But I have in the fact that I haven’t tried to commit suicide or cut myself. Because you know, that’s a really great way to handle the serious aspects of life. She told me she thought of me as ‘her little sister’ (even though I’m older) and I know that’s probably suppose to sound endearing, but hurts hell. Why can’t she take me seriously? Yes, I’ve done stupid things but so has she why do the stupid things I’ve done make me so much worse then the stupid things she’s done? I mean, I tried to talk things out with her but she acts like nothing I say matters. Like a 5 year old who doesn’t under stand why he’s suppose to wear a seat belt or eat vegetables or something, so he protests and tries to argue. That’s how she sees me… and I don’t understand why. We’re the same age pretty much and each of us has had a time where we didn’t handle life in a good way at all so why does that make me a stupid 5 year old and her the all knowing one? I don’t get it at all…

lease will someone talk to me real quick so I can get to bed?

I feel hopeless and like I could cry. I’m in a fight with a really important person in my life and I don’t know how it can be resolved if she continues to act like losing my friendship would be as big a deal as flushing a gold fish. This isn’t just some lame dispute over a guy or something, this concerns sex and suicide. I just turned 19 and she’s going to be 19 in a few months. We’re young, we’ve both done things that were a really horrible way to go about life. But for some reason, the horrible ways I’ve done make me a childish moron while she is for some reason all knowing and wise. To her, I am a 5 year old arguing why I really don’t need to eat my vegetables and she’s the adult who is capable of understanding the reasons why you do need to eat that stuff. I am so stupid and incompetent that she needs to lecture me and hopefully I’ll listen to the smart one so I don’t touch the stove and get burned. Because after all, she knows everything and I know nothing. And I should listen to her because even though I’m actually a few months older she is so much more grown up and wise than I am.