Money, money, money...

I just found a blog that tells you how to retire at 30.

No gimmicks, though I have been known to trust in things rather quickly, lolz. David from Raptitude led me to it, so I'm going to say that this one is a safe bet.

This was part of a message I was going to send to Mr. Money Mustache. Yes, I already sent him a contact lolz. 

"My main concern is losing out on investments, but I'm hoping if I learn enough about them then I won't have to worry about it. I also don't want to live in low-income houses because of all the dangerous riff raff those areas attract. A scrawny girl riding in a place like that on her bike.... not a good combination lolz."

I left this part out because I didn't want to bog him down with little details. I decided to tell him that I still had lots of questions, but that I'm sure they would be answered if I just look around a bit.

So, I guess I'll see what happens. I hope I can get my spending habits under control!!

Here's one of my favorite bands singing about this very thing, lolz.

Job

I avoided going to Idaho with a smoker today. I am a little sad because now I am stuck at the house, but hopefully this other job works out and I can move out. Yes, the prospect of moving out is within my grasp. I am excited. I really hope I can make some money!

Oh well, until I get a life, I still have a second one to keep me entertained.

I don't know what to do.

There may be a job for me in Mead, Kansas. Away from everyone and everything I've ever known. The things aren't that important, I like change. But an image pops into my head every time I think about it.... Megan's parties. I have only been to a few, I can't go to many it seems because this salesmen job is keeping me out of town every weekend. There is drinking, hookah, and lots of interesting people to talk to. I first went to her party on new years, where I didn't drink. But I sure met some cool people.

And most importantly, Megan is my life long friend. I've known her for longer than some of my family members. She and I are determined to always keep in touch. However, being so far away would be hard. I was just getting excited about going to these parties, having a drink or a puff, and getting to know these interesting people.

But really... should I pass up a job opportunity for parties? Well, I'm 21. I'm right at the party age (not that I'm much of a party hard girl). No matter what I do, I feel like I'm missing something important. I tried to ask myself which I'd remember more years from now... moving out or partying with good friends. Really, I can't decide. Obviously the job thing sounds like the better option. But I'm not worried about missing out of drinking, or being cool or whatever they portray in those teen movies that people think people worry about (maybe they do?). I don't know... I want to be social and not look back and see nothing cool or fun about my young adult years. I also don't want to see walmart and parties all the time. I want both. I want to good job and I want to see Megan and get to know those interesting people. Maybe something will happen that will clear all of this up soon. But right now, Idaho, ho!

Crazy

It's amazing.

All I did was decide that I wanted life to be different. After graduating Job Corps, I didn't want to go back to the basement. I wanted to travel, and I wanted a job that wasn't retail or food. ANYTHING pretty much but retail or food. So, thanks to my brother, I got a job with a traveling portrait company. And although I am not happy with the company (at first I loved the company, everyone seemed so nice and they talked a lot about self improvement stuff... then I realized that as a contracted employee, it is illegal for them to be taking %50 of my commission (which is my only pay) but they do because they consider us "part of the company" but apparently not part of it enough for benefits) it is a HELL of a lot better than walmart or taco bell, two places, and places similar, which I REFUSE to be apart of, unless in cases of desperation. But, here I am in a little horror movie town in Kansas with a lady, who I drove there with in my new car.

When I was little, I was determined that my first car would be red. Funny thing is, I got this car because the neighbors happened to be selling it and mom and daddy happened to decide to buy it for me. It wasn't until later that Megan reminded me that I had always said that my first car would be red. Coincidence? Maybe... but there seem to be a lot of coincidences like that in my life. As a kid, I wanted to move to the country to get real horses, but not so far that I wouldn't be able to see my friends. I wanted my room walls painted, I wanted posters, I wanted a skateboard, I wanted a family car that had sliding doors and a dvd player... and later on in life I wanted military school that could somehow get me a high school diploma, and simultaneously wanted to get out of the house, at least for a while. Now, with the descriptions of the latest desired happenings above, I will tell you that every last one of these things have come true. Maybe I wanted a lot of other things that have not come true, and I just don't remember them because I didn't get them. I'm sure that has happened, but considering just some of the things that HAVE happened, I am thinking of coming to the conclusion that something strange is going on. I don't know if it's God, the law of attraction, or something else. But I am really thinking that it is, in fact, something.

UPdaTe

Well, I moved from bay 3 to bay 6 in an effort to get away from Kayla. Unfortunately, Kayla moved out that very same day and I got stuck in one of the worst bays I've ever lived in. Lexy is bay leader, and she has every bad leader quality and lacks every good one. She's naggy, she can't communicate very well and has NO  listening skills WHAT SO EVER. I have to ask the same question 6 times to get any kind of answer. And then as much as she hounds us to follow the rules to a t, she breaks several herself.

Anyway, Cody and I "broke up" for like, 4 days but it didn't last after he decided to not move to california. and he knows some people who are trying to start a game design company right here in colorado, so maybe he can do what he wants to do after all. I honestly don't count that time as a break up, we didn't really act like we were broken up that much.

That is about all the updates. Oh yeah, I finished trade, high school, and am getting ready to graduate March 28th. I am done with everything and could leave anytime but I made a commitment to Mrs. Gregory for her play. I love Mrs. Gregory too much to run out on her after saying I would do this.

That is about all the is new. I guess that's a lot, actually. I finally found a way to learn math through the Khan Academy. It is an amazing website. So, now I'm getting ready to go full time trade (bleck) and hope they will just let me study, but as always, Mr. Keller insists I learn boring, uninteresting stuff about buildings.

Another life scenario

My idea of a great life changes constantly. But I'm decided to hold nothing back on this one. Realistic can go suck a hotdog, because this, as of 1/2/13, is all of the things I would like my reality to consist of after graduating from Colorado Christian University. But! Here's another twist. Instead of just that, I will also put how I think things will ACTUALLY go. So, let's see what my fickle mind wants this time.

Housing: a nice modern cabin. Where? The mountains, somewhere near town.

Right now I live in the country with access to several towns such as Castle Rock and Parker. I love it because it doesn't take an unreasonable amount of time to get there, and I have access to important life essentials like malls and restaurants (also grocery stores and health care centers and whatever). So, I would like to have the same thing after college.

This is my house. A modern cabin on a moderately sized property with lots of hiking trails, hunting and camping grounds. I do want a big, but not too big, house. It's what I'm used to and the only downside I can see is vacuuming, but they make robots for that.

Car

My dream car is the Tesla Model S. An electric car that doesn't help the environment (those batteries are DIRTY to make) But helps the wallet. No more confusing, difficult trips to the gas station (I'm a fairly incompetent car owner) and no more having to ask for help every time I go! Now I can recharge right at home where no one can see me not be able to use a gas station very well. And it saves lots of money.

Career

After graduating from Colorado Christian, I could then become a youth minister at a local church. I grew up with youth ministry, I know a lot more about what that job takes than any other. I can am prepared to do it well after college. I think that if my husband could have a much higher paying job, I can have my lower paying dream job and my dream everything else!!!

Pets

Ah, yet again thinking about Lacy's future companion. Besides a few more cats, I would like to have a dog. And poodles, being too high maintenance, American Indian Dogs, although beautiful, are too high energy. Therefore, I think the best dog to fit into my life would be the Labradoodle.

That I think about sums up my dream life. Now let's see where I actually might end up after I graduate from some Denver or Colorado Springs college. 






Housing: an apartment or small house in town.

To be continued later....

12/31/12

http://www.raptitude.com/2012/12/how-to-sit-in-a-chair-and-drink-tea/

This has so much meaning. I over think everything. I can hardly enjoy something for what it is or what it appears to be because I can't help but think of where it came from, what it means, why it's here. For example, I'm always thinking about the cgi or the acting instead of just enjoying the movie. Of course those images aren't real and those people are actors, why must it come to my mind? Well, I can enjoy a movie (thought I do think about those things), that is a metaphor for a lot of other things. But, don't a lot of people think about acting and cgi? Why am I worried about it? Do I want to be a mindless person who doesn't think about life too much? Maybe I do. I used to be that way as a kid but getting older I think about everything more. I'm not even sure what I'm talking about. I can't pin point it. I can enjoy things fine... I just think about some of them too much. Maybe that's everyone? Maybe that's a good thing? I don't know, it's driving my crazy. Sometimes I wish I could just  have a day where the grand scheme of things didn't cross my consciousness. Yeah... I don't know what that means.