I don't know what to do.

There may be a job for me in Mead, Kansas. Away from everyone and everything I've ever known. The things aren't that important, I like change. But an image pops into my head every time I think about it.... Megan's parties. I have only been to a few, I can't go to many it seems because this salesmen job is keeping me out of town every weekend. There is drinking, hookah, and lots of interesting people to talk to. I first went to her party on new years, where I didn't drink. But I sure met some cool people.

And most importantly, Megan is my life long friend. I've known her for longer than some of my family members. She and I are determined to always keep in touch. However, being so far away would be hard. I was just getting excited about going to these parties, having a drink or a puff, and getting to know these interesting people.

But really... should I pass up a job opportunity for parties? Well, I'm 21. I'm right at the party age (not that I'm much of a party hard girl). No matter what I do, I feel like I'm missing something important. I tried to ask myself which I'd remember more years from now... moving out or partying with good friends. Really, I can't decide. Obviously the job thing sounds like the better option. But I'm not worried about missing out of drinking, or being cool or whatever they portray in those teen movies that people think people worry about (maybe they do?). I don't know... I want to be social and not look back and see nothing cool or fun about my young adult years. I also don't want to see walmart and parties all the time. I want both. I want to good job and I want to see Megan and get to know those interesting people. Maybe something will happen that will clear all of this up soon. But right now, Idaho, ho!